Seriously, I mostly write for myself, but that doesn’t stop me from changing some things and gearing them toward other people.
Whenever I write a story, I always have an ending in mind. Sometimes it’s even the main part of what I imagined when I thought up the idea. I love HEAs, but sometimes I like some angst too. And it’s not happy or miserable unless you know how a situation came about; who cares about these guys until you get to know them, right?
But once you get to know them, your feeling toward them dictates how you want them to end up. A story should make you feel something for the characters no matter how their life turns out: Happy, sad, or dead.
I will admit that I have a certain fondness for the bad guys, from the simply mischievous to the darkest murderer. I love writing those guys — either from someone else’s perspective of them, or from the depths of their own twisted minds. (Though in the Panic Pure I’ve hung back from truly going into the head of the bad guy there, mostly because there’s a twist coming up and because that guy is just too crazy. I’d rather focus on Danny/Marshal and the whole hurt/comfort thing they’ve got going on.)
Anyways, my whole point is that I come from a fanfic background. I’m used to receiving reviews and getting into stupid conversations with people on LiveJournal. The only thing is that when you go semi-legit, it’s like starting all over again as the n00b and I totally hate it. So I thought I’d post a few free stories on my own site and let people come and discuss and whatever, but it doesn’t seem to be working out. Without my fanfic name wrapped around me, no one will talk to me.
900 people will comment on a stupid Mr. Gordo story, yet no one will say a word on my original fics. It’s so frustrating.
I have serious issues just going somewhere and talking on the Internet, especially if it’s to people I admire. I can be perfectly straight talking to someone that starts a conversation with me, but I can’t go up to other people and start it. The few times I’ve gone on a forum and spoke out about something, I’ve felt really proud of myself, but it’s been a long time. That whole Cracked thing really messed with my head too, but I don’t blame them. My brain’s sensitivity is set way too high.
So I thought if I posted my stuff up on my own site, people might come and want to ask me questions or whatever. Or maybe someone wants to see a one-shot or something or more history on a character. I love taking story requests, though a lot of the ones I accept end up being drabbles or metafics.
I’m big on Twitter and I love to respond to people on there and I have no problem chatting. I’m just really shy about starting a conversation.
